07.06.09
Testimonals #3
My “A-ha” moment
Since working with Lisa, my priority had been the work on healing myself and the acceptance of the break-up between me and my ex-boyfriend. But I had not dealt with another big relationship that had been plaguing me for years—that of my sibling.
My sister and I had not spoken in about 4 years, or at least on friendly terms. She and I had once been close confidantes, but we ended up in a silent war. Despite our ages, the whole family involved themselves in this battle, and it created so much strife for me that I was literally trying to run away from anyone associated with it. I had been cast as the bad one, and I had no stomach to continue trying to defend myself. The emotions she brought up in me whenever her name was mentioned became unbearable, and I decided very consciously some months ago, that if I am truly on a spiritual journey in life and if my soul’s purpose is to evolve, then I had to make peace within myself. But I still ignored it, remaining as detached as possible until the moment of course when somehow she would enter my life, then I felt the outrage all over again.
Lisa assigned me serious forgiveness work again, and I worked on it every day, sometimes several times a day. But I embraced it with gratitude, b/c I knew that this was the key to setting myself free in so many ways. It takes energy to keep anger in the body and spirit. One actually has to feed it! It wasn’t her that was holding me back, it was again, MY RESPONSE TO HER, MY OWN RESPONSE TO THE SITUATION, that was creating so much anxiety within me. How could I expect her to change when I couldn’t even change myself? I can ONLY change myself. So, when I think of her, or even speak of her, I accept her for who and what she is, and am able to bless her, thank her for helping me to see a way forward through so many emotions.
On a deeper level, Lisa had told me that our relationship was caught in the karmic web, that we had been in battle many times before, killed each other, back and forth.
Truly, it was time to end that cycle so I can now embrace and accept my own responses.
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